How do you solve a problem like Amy

Can I be honest with you? I hope that I can be. As a mother, I lost it tonight. Admittedly, I was in a very selfish place, I was playing Trivia Crack (which is very addicting), and watching a horror movie on Netflix. So, Steven is muttering something from the bathroom which I'm not getting because my attention is elsewhere. Steven is a very high functioning autistic boy of 14, he's smart, loving, funny, and a great guy to be around. BUT, there are days when even I can't take it anymore. It doesn't mean I don't love him, or don't understand him, but at that moment he needs to take a final step growing up in an area. Tonight's little escapade was the cat's in the bathroom while he is showering, he doesn't like it, and is always calling for us to get them out for him. I remind you that he is 14, and that he is high functioning autistic. Well, tonight I lost it, and I remind you that I was in my selfish zone, when I went  into said bathroom, Harley, the offending cat, was doing nothing. I yelled that "this is it, that you need to get over it, it's just the freaking cats. Deal with it." I know, totally unnecessary, and not good mama stuff at all. Do I feel bad? Hell yeah. Did I apologize to Steven? Yes, and he did accept my apology, and he forgave me. Is this the only time I've been a bad parent? No! And will it happen again, I'm sure it will, but I do hope and pray that it won't. I'm not a perfect parent, or Christian, or wife, or anything else, but I try to the best I can, and I do stumble. Thank God for His Grace and Love and most of all second, third, fourth, and etc. chances.